11·20·01 Very Early Morning

20-NOV-2001 00:00
 
I'm gonna fly you away, high above the noise and competition. Yeah, I'm a man with a mission...
« Bad Religion, "Man With A Mission" »

Now, I'm usually not a very... nice person. Most of the time I'm apathetic. And when I'm not apathetic, I'm usually sadistic or caustic. But sometimes, being nice is good. Worth it, just for that brief smile, or the O of pleasant surprise. It's so very worth it... Sigh. [That's a happy, pleased sigh.]

Am I schizophrenic? Do I have mood swings? Or am I just paranoid? Or is it just that I get lulled into complacency too easily...

11·20·01 Later That Very Early Morning

20-NOV-2001 00:15
 
I can't help this longing
Comfort me
I can't hold it all in
If you won't let me
      Heaven holds a sense of wonder
      And I wanted to believe
      That I'd get caught up
      When the rage in me subsides...
In this white wave
I am sinking
In this silence
      In this white wave
      In this silence
      I believe...
« Delerium and Sarah McLachlan, "Silence" »