12·07·01 Later That Morning

07-DEC-2001 09:15
      "Give me peace or release for fuck's sake."
            - KoRn, Reclaim My Place

So far this year I've forgotten three of my friends' birthdays. I have two small excuses, one of which is that none of them go to Roanoke, so I'm not reminded by their presence that their birthdays are coming up. The second excuse is those years when I was younger of planting myself in front of the T.V. until I grew roots into the floor. Damn thing sucked away my memory and replaced it with lines from cartoons and sitcoms. Anyway, the point is I feel so bad about forgetting these people's birthdays that saying "I'm sorry" to them just doesn't cut it.

In fact, I wish that "I'm sorry" hadn't just become another second hand phrase (like that couch you find at the side of the road that smells a little funny, but you take it back to your dorm room anyway because it's free). Apologizing is now a handy way to answer questions that you don't feel like talking about. For example, a recent discussion that I had, if you can call a two-sentence exchange a discussion, consisted of me saying, "I hate money". The other person responded with, "I'm sorry". What the hell is that? And people do it all the time. "I'm sorry" is a phrase that should be saved up and used when it really applies. Using "sorry" so nonchalantly, in situations where it's not even needed only takes away it's meaning; makes the apology mean a lot less than it really does. Oh, and don't even try to get me started on "I love you". I hear that one come out every three seconds from a lot of people who date, until "love" has no meaning any more. Phrases like these need to be cherished and kept locked away until they should be used. That way they don't just become another phrase to say that has no feeling behind it at all. They'll become another thing like, "Would you like fries with that?" So, I guess there is no wonder as to why I feel inadequate when I say that I'm sorry about forgetting my friends' birthdays.

Did I push anyone's comfort level with my quote? If I did, then great. That means that not all words or phrases have lost their meaning or power yet. We're all still being desensitized, though. Most people wouldn't think twice if they heard the word "fuck" outside of a classroom or professional setting. So maybe I'm wrong in saying that some words still have power. Anyway, I made this short enough so that everyone could read it and get on with their lives or other homework, and I hope that's what you'll do.
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